LISTEN INTENTLY, SPEAK SOFTLY, LIVE POWERFULLY
I have never had a better life than the one I have today. I had hoped for a life like this growing up. As a child, I saw my friends attain functional abilities that escaped me until recently. So much of my life was lost in self-loathing, envying others, and feeling isolated, wondering what was wrong with me. Thankfully, things have changed. Today I am thankful to be alive. Joy has overwhelmed me as the result of accepting God’s grace and giving myself to Him. But, as full as I feel now, I also still feel restlessness within me. Called from Eternity, I yearn relentlessly for something deeper — something more. It is as if I have walked a thousand miles excited to get home, but the last mile is a steep uphill climb home. This is nothing new for me, really. Much of my life was spent chasing earthly pleasures like social prestige and financial security in an attempt to satisfy my soul. It is clear to me now, that I am created with a desire for more, and I am not alone in this desire. The undercurrent of every destructive behavior is a yearning that exists unheard and unsatisfied, because no earthly thing will satisfy anyone.
Every man or woman who has come to our fellowship has, by their own admission, failed to satisfy the deepest longings of their soul. No matter how hard we tried, our efforts to satisfy our deepest longing was only temporary, always failing to satisfy our innermost selves. We surrendered our lives to God, not because we were good or honorable or even because we wanted to at the time; we surrendered our lives to save them! No one gets God by personal virtue. He is discovered only when a bankrupt man or woman honestly seeks Him.
Every one of us has our own personal reasons for surrendering our lives to God, and some sound very good, while others sound pathetically selfish. And this is okay because there is never a bad reason to ask God for his help. Any and every reason we have to recover from the broken condition of our lives is a good one. However, over time we learn to seek God for reasons that are more honest. We learned, and are still learning, to surrender for the best reason — God Himself. We came to Him because we had to; we stayed with Him because we learned to live in grace. There is no better place for a recovering man or woman to live.
This is an excerpt from WHEN LOST MEN COME HOME, not for men only
~ Copyright David Zailer, 2011