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Wednesday, March 21, 2012
Integrity Inside, Integrity Outside
Integrity Inside and Out
“God is in charge of human life, watching and examining us from the inside and out.
Proverbs 20:27 The Message
“The genesis of an obedient life is our confession; most notably the confession of our disobedience is what prompts us to live an obedient life with God.”
- Ann Lamott
We continued to take personal inventory and when we were wrong, promptly admitted it.
Ever notice how easy it is to become more concerned with how we look on the outside than with the honest reality of our inner character? It’s not like we intend to be dishonest, because we don’t. We want and intend to live right and to do good but—inevitably it seems—we slip off the path of God’s leading when we become overly concerned with how we look to others. Then, the failures that follow make us feel embarrassed and ashamed so we naturally—instinctively—cover up and hide the failure and powerlessness that we don’t want others to see.
Trying to act good on the outside in order to show that we are good on the inside sets us up for failure. It adds to our dysfunctional way of thinking and living. We think and feel one way, but then we act out in other ways—ways that are contrary to what we know to be right. And when our actions go against our true convictions, we get split into pieces spiritually and psychologically. This results in a kind of deep interpersonal disintegration that, sadly, we will probably not even realize is happening to us. Just like with our primary addiction, the only way to break this cycle of denial and disintegration is to admit that we have a problem. Specifically, we have to be willing to admit that we suffer from the great obsession that all human beings—with the exception of Jesus—seem to suffer from: we want to be bigger and more powerful than we really are.
To address this kind of deep-rooted sinfulness effectively, we have to admit that we are obsessed with getting our act together so that others will be impressed with us and our efforts. We must admit our struggles if we want to be free from them. This even includes admitting how obsessed we have been to overcome our struggles. We need to admit that we don’t have our act together and that we never did have our act together. We need to accept in our innermost selves that, even if it were possible for us to get our act together, all that we would ever have would be nothing more than an act.
The first act of integrity is to recognize and admit how we lack integrity.